12/31/2004

oooh two posts for the price of one
so po'
Once again, I cannot afford the 'or. It's so sad and shameful. I spent a long time on the phone with my bank as they explained why I'm so poor. It was depressing. At one point, the guy on the phone tries to strike up a conversation with me. I was so depressed that I couldn't even engage in a normal convo. And as I think about it now, I sorta think he might have been trying to do some Asian-bonding or something. Here's sort of how it went:
bank guy: so let's go through your recent transactions.
me: uhhh, okay...
bank guy: [going over the transactions one by one] so hold on a minute, let me pull up the rest of your records
me: yeah, um, okay...
bank guy: so can I ask you, what ethnicity is your last name?
me: uh... Chinese
bank guy: do you speak mandarin? Cantonese?
me: uh... no, not really. wish I spoke Cantonese better... uh... [still sort of shell shocked from my lack of funds.]
bank guy: Oh, because my mom speaks...[blah blah blah some Asian languages blah blah blah] and I go with her instead of my dad [blah blah blah Asian food blah blah blah]
me: [silence.]
bank guy: so let me pull up your records.

So I guess I wasn't very nice, but I was so preoccupied and nervous about my brokeness. Looking back at it, this also creeped me out because the guy went over all of my bank info and then wanted to connect with me. Hey buddy, you just saw how broke I am, please, let me have a few moments of silence to commemorate my lost funds. We've already connected, bank guy. Anyway, I'm ringing in the new year broke. Yay for me. Can we register for dolla billz?

new years eve
is one of the most overrated holidays. It sucks because everyone asks each other about NYE plans, but no one ever seems to have any really concrete plans. So then, there is an assumption that everyone must have holiday plans, which I never seems to have. My holiday has consisted of driving from SJ to LA with the 'rents. I also just spent a couple of excruciating hours at my cousin's house, trying to ignore the tension that permeated the house. Icky family conflict put me in a horrible mood. So now I'm sitting here, in my kitchen, waiting for my apple cider to chill (we gave the last bottle of wine to my cousin so now I'm left here at home without drink), watching tv. Another year gone.

12/25/2004

Merry Christmas!
I don't think I spent enough time this season reflecting on the goodness of Christ's birth. Hm. Anyway, right now I'm trying to block out my mom's voice by playing minsoo's Christmas mix from 2002 or 01. The Lakers are playing the Heat, Shaq got kicked out of the game and they're in overtime. I think Miami won because my mom is going mm-mm, in that non-approving mom-way.

I'm going up to Northern Cal next week to do a whole mess of wedding stuff: picking up my dress (!!), registering, having my BMs try on their dresses, checking out some Cheongsams in Chinatown, seeing photographers... phew! I'm tired just thinking about it.

Have a great day celebrating!

12/24/2004

grades are in
hee hee hee hee hee.... I'm having a nerdy "little 9-year-old girl with big glasses who likes summers because she can join the library book club" moment. Not that I've ever *ahem* had this moment or anything.

12/23/2004

why I love "1nside the Actor's Studio" on Brav0 and ZackBraff(not together, separate, but still loved):
The Simps0ns are on. Not the animated characters, but the actors that do the voices on the show -- in their character's voices. Hi-larious. Hank Azar1a is doing the voice of Apu now.

ZB's Christmas post on his GS blog is Hi-larious. His final greeting: "Just say no, stay in school, and nobody puts baby in the corner, Peace and Love, ZB" His new year's resolutions include "laughing at babies who are late walkers." Oh the sarcasm makes me swoon. I have a new crush that I can add to my "nerdy movie stars that are funny and smart" list. Move over J1mmyFallon.

12/20/2004

*sigh*
Yes, the quarter is over. I worked hard, met some cool people and learned some cool stuff. I also found my long-forgotten high school nerd persona. Yes people, the overachieving study nerd is BACK in full effect. I've rediscovered the art of studying, an activity I used to reserve only for reading week when I was at NU.

Anyway, a few celebrations are in order:
1. My computer is back and doing alright. Yay! (too bad it died the week before finals)
2. I'm going to pick up my wedding dress in 8 short days - Yes!
3. I got an internship for the winter at an awesome progressive non-profit. Oh sooo cool, you have no idea. Probably the coolest organization I've worked for.
4. The quarter is over.
5. It's freakin' WARM - like 80 degrees. And it's December 20th.
6. I slept for like 11 hours last night. Sleep rocks.

I am in a good mood.... today. *finally*

12/15/2004

one of those weeks
Final number 2 is over... I just spent over 9 hours finished up a group project due tomorrow... I have a paper and another final AND an internship fair on Friday. I can't believe it's only Tuesday. I'm so tired. Monday's final only took me 4 hours (we could stay 8 if we wanted) and today's final was the hardest but I managed to leave not feeling too bad about myself. Our groups project kicks butt so I'm feeling pretty good about stuff in general, but I am feeling the burn. I don't think I've ever had such a productive finals week, but I am sooooo exhausted. Just waiting for Saturday.

12/09/2004

the worst day ever
Okay, so I'm exaggerating. Sort of.
Today I turned on my computer and got nothing. No sound, no whirring, nada. It was plugged in, the green light told me the power was surging through the battery, yet my little computer did not fire up. I went to Best Buy (yay for 3-year warranties) and they told me that they'd have to send it out to be fixed... for 2-3 weeks.

Um, hi it's freakin' finals week next week. I have a data for a group project and a group memo on my freakin' hard drive.

This is when I brokedown and cried at Best Buy. Not my finest moment, but you know what? I'm sort of used to crying in front of strangers. It's kinda cathartic. I also went home and cried on the shoulder of my dad, which I haven't done since I was like 5.

My cousin is an IT director so I drove to his work and he took my computer apart and helped me back up part of my hard drive. Laurence saved my ass, not unlike how superchoong saved minsoo's awhile back.

My computer is now in the hands of BB, my school-related data is backed up and my parents loaned me their laptop. It's okay, it's okay.

Thanks to minsoo who, once again, sees me at my worst and still manages to want to walk this journey with me.

Bring on finals. Nothing like a crisis to remind me that I am not in control, even though I try so hard to be.
urban planning relates to real life
My prof has a parking meter in his office. No,really, he does. I went in for office hours and it was sitting on his desk. I think I am going to burn a copy of the meter song and attach it to my last assignment. If he likes it, maybe he will consider it a little "extra credit" *wink wink*. Hey it doesn't hurt to try.

I went to another prof's office (I was makin' the rounds) and it turns out her sons went to my rival high school and her cousin was one of my club advisors. Small world, sort of. I don't think I've talked about high school rivalry since I graduated from high school. It's weird being near home, where people actually know your 'hood. Speaking of the 'hood, this little house a few doors down from my parents' place sold for 1.5 mill buckaroos. Can you believe it??? Housing prices are ridiculous. A lot of my classmates are studying "affordable housing," as if it's an ancient concept. I guess it is in this area.

12/08/2004

wow, i'm probably the only one that thinks this is hilarious. how sad.
My applied econ prof makes us write responses to the weekly readings and post them to a general message board that everyone reads. Tonight is the last time I can post a response, but right now I'm so brain dead that I can't think of anything appropriate. The last time I wrote notes late at night I refer to that "p1mp my ride" show... not quite an academic piece.

The only urban planning related thing that i can think of right now are the lyrics to a funky song that minsoo made me listen to... it's called "money in the meter"... why does this relate to urban planning? My prof constantly talks about parking meters and parking lots and the evils of the automobile (this is la, after all). I think he thinks cars are the work of the devil and that we as planners should work at making drivers pay for the real costs they impose on our streets and air. I'm beginning to believe him. Anyway, when I first heard this song, I thought it was the funky version of my prof's lectures... for those of you not familiar with this piece, here's a sample:
"put your money in the meter, stay for a little while, (stay, stay....)
i know just how to treat you, know how to make you smile,
put your money in the meter, stay for a little while (stay, stay...)
i ain't here to cheat you, you know that ain't my style..."

I think this song is about a booty call, but if you take it literally....
The song makes me laugh because I keep imagining my 60 year old white prof getting down and funky with the song. He loves metered parking so I am convinced this is his anthem. I'm considering burning a copy of the song and giving it to him. I'm delirious. I need to sleep.

put your money in the meter... stay for a little while.... (stay! stay!)

i need winter break.

11/27/2004

why being sick on Thanksgiving sucks: An essay by wai-ling
[warning: post is filled with complaints.]
Being sick on Thanksgiving sucks for many reasons. However, I would like to focus on why being sick during the Thanksgiving holiday is even worse, for me at least. Holidays are family times when you eat until you think about throwing up. Sometimes this overindulging is a good thing. However, the throwing up part is not. I say this because the real tragedy of being sick this holiday season was enjoying my pumpkin pie and then... um, not enjoying it, if you get my drift. In case you haven't been reading or haven't been around me in years, you might not know my obsession with the orange vegetable (fruit?) that is THE PUMPKIN. I love the pie, the ice cream, the sorbet, the bread, the jamba shake... I could go on. In conclusion, I think that being sick sucks in general, but being sick during the most important dessert holiday of the year is possibly one of the worse things, second only to war, AIDS, starvation and Bush in office. The end.

11/25/2004

happy thanksgiving.
i'm sick. no thank you minsoo. i feel like crap.

11/22/2004

apartment disaster deja vu
I came home tonight and had a Deja Vu moment. Well, sort of. After a marathon study session at the Chious, I came home and noticed IT. A big wet spot on my ceiling and a corresponding spot on the wall just above the floor.

Yes, a watermark on my ceiling. Hm, remind you of anything? Unfortunately, the concept of water leaking from my ceiling and onto my shoe rack (which was, coincidently, the very same spot that the water cascaded through my ceiling just under two years ago) brought back horrible memories of the fire department, hysterical crying and asbestos. I called the 24-hour maintenance line and asked them to send someone over. Aw hell no. Not again. The maintenance girl came over and told me that someone will come by tomorrow morning. Um, that was not helpful at all. I'm kinda nervous about this considering the fact that there's some droplets of water in the outlet below the watermark.

I keep telling myself that there's no way history would repeat itself, right? I mean those type of disasters aren't common occurences, right? Right? RIGHT?!

11/17/2004

studying has opened up a whole new world
My first quarter of grad school is almost over and I am starting to feel the burn. I'm tired all the time, starting to fall asleep during classes, worrying about all of the projects that are due. You think I'm complaining, right. Actually, school is pretty dope. I keep telling Paula how amazing it is... when you actually study. I think I studied a total of 2 weeks per quarter in undergrad. I'm really enjoying being fully engaged all quarter. I am still behind, still stressed about assignments, but it's all under control. I sort of wish I didn't have to plan a wedding right now because I'm actually enjoying academia and I wish I could be more involved in school stuff.

Anyway, I'm tired and I can't wait for winter break! Whew... in the meantime, still scouting out BM dresses and having mild breakdowns about wedding crap. Who knew I could think about color schemes for months on end and not come up with anything? Weddings, schmeddings.

On a funny note, one of my classmates found out that Angry AM is my fiance. He was like, 'whoa, that guy is famous! I read his page everyday!' He was rather impressed, which made me feel a little weird. Proud, but sorta weird. My classmate also "warned" me that his girl friends were "jocking" (by the way, I'm still not totally clear on this definition) minsoo at a conference he went to a few weeks ago. I told him to spread it around that AAM is TAKEN!

11/13/2004

less political stuff for you weak-hearted (just kidding)
I saw the second Bridget J movie last night with paula han, jt and susan shaw. It was like a seeing the first one again, only this time Bridget goes to Thailand (insert Thai prostitute stereotype here)! It was funny and cute and I generally had a good time (except for the Thailand part), but I still like the first one better. Just to make sure, I watched it last night, after I got back from the movie. And then I watched it this afternoon, you know, just to make sure. I recommend watching the second one if you loved the first one or if you haven't watched the first one in awhile, because it's pretty similar. I loved the second book that this sequel is based on, but it was such a crazy story that didn't translate well to the movie.

I need to see Garden State because the soundtrack rocks. That Zero 7 song was used in another indy film starring two roommates and a pair of nunchucks... hmmm.

Pumpkin season is almost over. :(

Wedding planning sucks sometimes (and lately all the freakin' time), but hearing about friends and families' engagements are awesome --- 2 more next year, including my cousin's wedding in HAWAII! I am so there.

11/09/2004

dial up
i am using dial up right now. this is all i can type... too... slow...
4-day weekend coming up! If I can get by tomorrow without the prof calling on me...
not sure about being moded, but sorta felt like it
Today I was talking to our department advisor with a classmate of mine and all of a sudden, they start talking about some event my classmate attended. As I stood and listened politely (feeling very out of the loop) suddenly it dawns on me: I know what they're talking about. They're talking about the scholarship I didn't get because of, ahem, my little outburst of emotions. And then I remember that I knew this chick got the scholarship (we're both Asian and in the UP school, total "demographic twins" only she worked for a senator's office and knows the freakin' president of the organization giving out the scholarship).

She was talking about the fancy (read: Issac Hayes and Angela Bassett were there) event honoring the recipients. DANG IT. So I felt awkward because I'm listening to them talk about a scholarship I didn't get and I'm wondering if they knew I was one of the finalists but I don't know how to insert myself into the conversation and ask about what they're talking about. If I do, what the hell do I say?
Scenario A:"Oh yeah, I didn't get that scholarship" (insert nervous laugh here) which would probably stop the conversation? Or...
Scenario B: Do I do a little recap of my crying session where I pound on the table and tell 'em what pisses me off? Or...
Scenario C: Or do I just stand there and feel crappy about myself?

Yes, of course I chose option C. [Option D would have involved me shouting "NO FAIR YOU GOT SCHOLARSHIP!" And stomping away like a 2 year old. So mature and professional!]

Anyway, it made me feel a little moded. It's like standing there next to someone who got something you didn't because you messed up and then you get to listen to them talk about how cool it was. Oh wait, it wasn't just "like" I was standing there... I WAS standing there.

Once again, another Monday, another vent.

11/07/2004

I am a sucker for Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. The show gives me tingles inside that almost make me forget about the sad state of our nation. Other than the fact that abc and the other sponsors are making a killing off of ratings and advertisements, it warms my heart to see something so positive. I watch it every Sunday night and without fail am drawn to tears of happiness. Minsoo and Messy laugh at me, but who wouldn't cry? You have no heart if you don't at least get misty eyed when those families see their house for the first time. It gives me a little urban planning moment when people really react to the built environment around them. Anyway, I thought I'd shoot the breeze about tv so that this one post wouldn't only be about our sad sad state of public affairs.

Special shout out to those, especially minsoo, messy and hannah yu , who remind me that i'm not the only one who cares about this crap. It's nice to log on and see some good opinions. No offense to those who write about their trips, etc. but dang it, sometimes you need a little time on the soapbox. Props to hannah who keeps it real in the DC rice fields.

I'm glad I believe in Jesus because even though Nov 2nd was a sad, sad day, there's still hope in Him.

11/03/2004

is the word "co-opted" too strong a term?
Overheard at school: "There were two main groups that were supposed to help decide the election: the youth and the evangelical Christians. What happened to the youth?" Hearing this kicked my ass like no other. Despite the fact that I am no longer in the MTV demographic, I still consider myself down with those who heeded the "Vote or Die" message from P-Diddy. However, I also consider myself an "Evangelical Christian." Or do I? I am proud to be part of the contingent who went to the polls to vote their "morals". However, I am appalled that I am in the minority 25% of this group who did not vote for Bush. I am sickened that faith has been so warped in this election and this past administration. It offends me that someone has co-opted my faith. I'm not saying that Christians need to vote Democratic, green or even Peace and Freedom. I'm just saying that voting your faith is not as black and white as it's painted out to be. If you feel that God is neither a republican nor a democrat, go to www.sojo.net. It's for Christians who believe their faith is about social justice and doing Jesus's work, regardless of party affiliation.

11/01/2004

addendum
Vote for Kerry. Especially if you're in one of the 9 battleground states. I actually don't think I know anyone in the swing states. Vote for Kerry even if you consider yourself "conservative" whatever that means... I'm not even sure I'm that "liberal"). It's okay, I won't tell. Kerry is actually pretty conservative too. Vote for Kerry even if you've always voted Republican. Dems don't bite. A little motivational story: my dad is a staunch republican and last year's election he voted for Nader. You too, can vote outside the party lines. If anyone knows my Dad you know that he's not super liberal. In fact, he listens to (gasp!) talk radio on the AM dial. If my dad can do it, so can you!

I just erased my serious and passionate arguments for and against the candidates, because I know that most of you have already made up your mind. I definitely have strong opinions so I'll just stop there. Vote your conscience. No matter what happens we all need to pray hard.
everybody's doing it...
Tuesday is election day. I know there are a lot of apathetic people out there, especially young Asian Ams. Please pass the word along to your friends to go vote. Even if all they do is fill in the bubble for president, it still counts. I know there's a lot to vote for. I spent hours with some friends going over all of those dumb, sketchy propositions and I still wasn't sure how to vote.

Public Service Announcement: If you get there and they don't have your name down or something like that, you can request a provisional ballot. This way, your vote will still count and they'll figure it out later. (I've done this before) It's your constitutional right!

Also, if someone asks you to take a survey, do it. I'm going to be one of those surveyers.

Vote. It's exciting. I want to sound all open-minded and understanding, but seriously, I will be disappointed if you don't. People in other countries would die for the chance to vote in open elections. I'm sure there will be a long line, but it's worth it. Ooh I'm so excited, I'm so excited.... I'm so.... scared.